Here is another area that I need to change and the only way to change it is to lose weight. Going through school in Scotland as a fat kid you get beaten, made the class reject, etc. Over this time I have build up an inner fire reserved for those that dare to comment on my weight; kind of like putting a match to petrol.

If anyone mentions my weight I can’t bit my lip, I am going to explode and sumo plough (plow) that person with my words. As much as I try when someone (is stupid enough) to pass a comment I am going to retaliate. Now after my schooling years and I joined the rat race thanking God for harassment policies no one would normally say anything about any ones weight, height, race, religion, etc. So my beast was locked up, but not gone.

Then I ventured east, first to Singapore. We always hear about the east as ‘the place where people save face’, right? That is the case but not if you are fat, and especially if you are super fat like me.

I was in for a shock, and so were they…….

When I explode it’s like I form my response in about 0.1 seconds and I can hear myself speaking but I can restrain or stop myself.

In Asia I have been to Singapore, Malaysia and of course Indonesia and it seems to be the same culturally; passing comments to fat people or people with anything different from the norm.

I came to Asia with a mind set of;

“It’s not wrong, it’s just different”

And living by this has helped a lot and I had no (almost none) real culture shock, except these fire provoking comments.

Here are the top 5 comments that I have vented upon people that went into the hot zone;

1. (“You’re so fat”) “I am fat but I can change, but you are ugly and you will be forever!”

2. (“You’re so fat”) “You are calling me fat and you have ears like satellite dishes!”

3. (“How did you get so fat?”) “And my question for you is; were you born with a pigs face!” (In Indonesia calling someone a pig is the biggest insult.)

4. (“How did you get so fat?”) “How did your teeth get so black?” (He had big thick black teeth.)

5. (“Why don’t you lose weight?”) “And why don’t you go and choke on something?”

I don’t know how many times, and every time I feel as guilty as ever. They are right, but do they have to tell me? I mean do people think that I don’t know that I am fat that they have to tell me?

This is a part of me that I don’t like and I have tried to hold it down and bite my lip or stick my shoe in my mouth but 9 out of 10 times my shoe gets burned up and my piercing words go through people.

This is something that will go when I have won my fight with fat. I am guessing that it will go when people have nothing to comment on.